Happy Anniversary

Thank you for letting me sleep last night. Thank you for being such an awesome Dad. Thank you for loving me for who I am the past 11 years. You are the greatest man in the world and I love U forever. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!

I never knew how tough being a mom really is

It was a tough weekend for me, baby was quite fussy and hubby was busy doing alot of things around the house. I usually look forward to the weekends and the time I get to spend with my guys but the past two weekends it seems like I failed miserably at every thing I tried to do. The minute I would get baby to sleep one of the dogs would bark or some noise would wake him... How do mothers get anything done? How do you keep your house clean, laundry done, meals on the table and raise a child? I didn't thing it was going to be this hard. I love my little guy but lately I find myself just needing to stop and take an extra breather and catch my breath-just a few minutes alone with no animals, no baby, no one just me. I feel like I am being selfish and I will look back someday and wonder why I was being that way and I should have treasured those moments more. But right now...its tough. I can't imagine how women who have PPD cope? This is hard enough. I would love to be home with my little guy every day but until I can get through this-whatever it is....

Really its been 2 years

It is hard to believe that it had been 2 years since I found our house. I remember looking at http://www.homesales.gov/ and seeing the little picture of the front porch and immediately calling my hubby that I had found our new home. "We don't even know where it is?" he said. "Its somewhere close to where we are now" I said. Three miles from where we were living to be exact. We drove past it 4 times before we found it. All that could be seen of the house was a dark green gate, the house was not visible from the road. I cried when we drove up the driveway and I hadn't seen the inside I didn't care I knew this was meant to be. It was filthy and needed alot of work, and 2 years later I look back on all that we have done. After all "Rome wasn't built in a day" and we knew that we could fix everything we wanted overnight. Now with the baby, we are more eager than ever to finish. The kitchen desperately needs new countertops and we need some flooring still. The blue in the bath was repainted white and we still cannot decide on another color for the bathroom. The bath has been painted 5 times and we still never seem to like the color. The yard is really where we have put alot of work into, but this year being pregnant, we didn't get alot done and alot of it grew back. The driveway is a red dirt mess and since it has been raining so much we need a load of gravel. But on the bright side, hubby has 4 cords of wood cut and is hoping to cut some more this weekend. We had a fire in the woodstove the other night to take the chill out-it was soo cozy. Every weekend since the baby has been born I have tried to finish his room-hopefully I can get him to sleep this wkd long enough to finish all the touch ups- although I treasure the time I get to spend with him on the wkds. I can hardly wait for X-mas, this year we will have lights.